January 2011
I want to have someone to give all my love to,
without fearing any harm come to it from the person I give it if they take it & crush it. I want to talk all day every day & all night until we fall asleep & love on each other without worrying about shit. I want you to listen to everything I have to say & not get mad when I’m honest about things about you. Allison, get the message, just understand. I don’t need much,...
I think & react faster when I'm mad. My veins...
When that happens, I suggest you watch out.
I am nothing without you.
Maybe you don’t realize you’re my only reason to be around anymore. Without you I’ll only be one thing. Dead. Maybe you just don’t realize.
My body is screwing up & I don’t even care. Something is wrong but I won’t bother trying to figure it out. Everyone dies anyway.
I give up.
I’ll just pretend nothing is wrong & tear myself to pieces at night.
3 1/2 more hours until I get to go home & sleep.
But I’m sending my girlfriend a cute text to wake up to before I sleep :).
Stealing internet from the church we're locked in...
Lock in packing list
nerf guns
computer
power cord
portable speaker
paper to write on
pens
ipod
2 sets of Skullcandy phones
food
energy drinks
Bring it, young Boy Scouts. I’m ready for you.
It’s on, fool. This is war.
At the very edge of existence, your soul escapeth...
Standing on the edge looking down,
Danger & dismay in the town
Down, down, down, their frowns.
Compounded by the malicious,
Making the life look so delicious.
It’s anything but, only ruts,
cuts in the fabric of society.
People watch from their windows,
like minnows stuck in a fish tank.
The malicious defy the minnows,
walking the streets at night,
smiles like swords &...
On GTA
Car you can’t stop? Run it down with a tank. You leave a car? Shoot the tires out so no one else can use it. You get mad irl? Go on a rampage.
I want to race professionally,
but I don’t have the support, the money, or a car to use to race.
OMFG NOT FUCKING COOL!
My life.
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If I told everyone the truth, would it change anything?
If anything happens I’ll ask box my info to someone & they’ll log on for me & tell you all.
I'm feeling so lonely.
How much longer can I keep pretending I'm okay?
I’m running out of excuses.
I'm so far from home.
kaybaylessthanthree:
youdonotownme:
She’s a sleepless night’s drive away. Her heart, her smile, the way she looks at me. Everything about her. That’s where home is. Where ever she is, in her arms, her lips pressed to mine, her arms around my neck. Home, where I feel truly happy & where I want to be, always.
You just honestly described what I’ve always wanted to say to Laura.
Now if...
I'm so far from home.
She’s a sleepless night’s drive away. Her heart, her smile, the way she looks at me. Everything about her. That’s where home is. Where ever she is, in her arms, her lips pressed to mine, her arms around my neck. Home, where I feel truly happy & where I want to be, always.
I'm terrified to lose my girlfriend.
If I do, I’m certain of my demise.
Then he killed himself out of desperation.
Maybe they’ll remember him then.
I sit here every day, alone with my thoughts.
I start to think why I always feel like I’m not as good as everyone else, because it seems like everyone does stuff better than me. I just feel like a burden to others because I can’t live up to what I should be able to do at my age. I feel so bad that I can’t do what is required, but I just can’t. For whatever reason I just can’t. It’s upsetting because I want...
lol hey, I'VE never had a valentine. k.
Me either .-.
I'm in a good mood today :).
I don’t understand why though. I guess there could be one reason :).
I'm so lucky to have this girl in my life.
She knows just what to say to calm me down or help me. She knows pretty much what I’m thinking every second of every day. Just thinking of her banishes my depression completely. She’s so sweet, nice, adorable, beautiful, and loving. I don’t know why it took so long for me to realize I needed her in my life to keep me okay & give me someone to always love unconditionally &...
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iloveyouu:
thehardcorehipster:
C:
MEEE
ME!
The pain is always there.
And tonight, I'll be going to sleep thinking of...
Wondering if you’re okay & wondering if I ever cross your mind anymore.
I'm actually kind of smart.
When it comes to cracking into or fixing something.
Now if I need to get into them for any reason, I...
Oh yeah. Both trigger locks cracked in less than...
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ijustlaughh:
iftheworldwasonfire:
tonightiloveu:
OHHHH CANAADAAAAA
I actually do live here. SUCK IT BITCHES :D Actually where I live isn’t so great.
ACTUALLY I DONT LIVE IN NEW YORK SOOO… GOOD TRY.
I LIVE HERE.
One trigger lock down, one to go.
I'm undoing the trigger locks on my guns. Silly...
Then the apocalypse happened and they all died....
Suicide.
Suicide makes a lot of sense if you see it through the eyes of a person who was hurt/ is hurting all their lives.
I miss Allison.
^^^ that’s me right now
If she doesn’t answer my ask box message I’ll just jump my car off something or run it into something & make sure I die.
I still love you Allison.
I miss Allison.
I miss how she knew what was always going through my head, no matter what. How she always knew the exact words to say to calm me down. How she made me feel wanted & loved & untouchable. I miss that.